Goodnight Moon...

not that you’ll ever see this or read it or even bother.

i hate you. I FUCKING HATE YOU. you are killing me. i’m living in the destruction you left for me. and just as i think i’m free again, you bring me right back. you make me feel wanted. then you lie to me and leave me in the dark, alone to figure this out on my own. all i want is your honesty. cuz God.. i think i still love you. until i see you. til i c who u r now. the only reason i dont want you back is because of who you’ve become. you can’t possibly be right for me. not like you would even change one little thing to make me happy. the thing is.. i know who tyou are. everyone hasd told me, has shown me, i’ve seen it for myself. i shouldnt even waste my time thinking that you were ever different. cuz i knew who you really were in the back of my mind. you have yet to show me any different. i’m so upset right now i can barely type. so i guess i’ll jus post videos that remind me of u.